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22 August 2006 @ 10:32 am
Title: Somewhere Out There
Fandom: Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicle - General Series
Characters: Ashura, Fai, Kurogane, Freya
Prompt: 051. Water
Word Count: 1,847
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Trapped beneath the water he hates, all Ashura can do is watch as Fai slowly destroys his life.
Author's Notes: I don't own Tsubasa, RG Veda or Chobits.

Slash abounds. Implied past Ashura/Fai and present action Kurogane/Fai.

Written mostly because I have been dissatisfied with the way most people tend to write Ashura and the Ashura/Fai relationship.

X-posted everywhere. You have probably been spammed.

He had never cared much for water unless it was in the process of freezing into ice. Water was unpredictable, constantly changing, reminding him of everything he hated about life. He had never been able to hold onto anything that was important. Water was essential to giving people life, and the things he cared most about in the universe that gave him reasons for living slipped through his fingers as easily as the water did. He had quite a lot of time to think about how much he hated the water as he lay trapped dreaming beneath a massive amount of it. Fai was the one who had insisted on having the pool in the first place, claiming it would give the inhabitants hope to see so much free-standing water whenever everything else was frozen. He had not realized at the time that pool would be the source of so much torment for him, showing him dreams of past and present.

He should have known the mage was becoming disconnected and detached from reality. The first warning sign should have came when he created that cat girl and began spending much of his time with her. But Ashura had passed it off as fancy, and the man would remember soon enough that there was absolutely no reason for him to be lonely when he had the entire court and the King’s love. If the girl did not set off warning flags, the man’s insistence that the tattoo was no longer strong enough should have. He persistently confided in him that he was worried he was going to hurt somebody again, somebody he cared about. Ashura tried to reassure him that he was being foolish and was too good natured to ever harm anyone. He had eventually managed to coax a smile from the blonde mage and sent him on his way to be pampered by some of the servants, figuring the problem was solved. But the blue eyes grew more distant, and he was slowly pushing everyone else away from him except his strange cat girl, claiming he was incapable of loving any one ever again. Magical creatures could not feel pain, but she could offer him the much desired companionship.

Still, he never thought the situation was getting out of control, even when the man started to pull away from him as well. He had not even noticed the mage had detached from him until he reached over to brush his cheek one day, and the blonde fidgeted out of range. That was when he started to get worried, but his love had blinded him, and he simply let the man slip through his fingers like the water. Because the water could be caught with something else and still grant life. He just needed to find the right container to catch the mage in.

He, like everyone else in the court, had heard about the freak accident caused by some of Fai’s rogue magic that had killed Fai’s sister. The girl the cat girl had been designed to resemble. Everyone knew but no one ever said anything. Under other circumstance, the court would have lived in fear of the blonde. But Ashura was undeniably the stronger magician, and he had placed the tattoo on his back to make sure such an incident never happened again.

Those within the immediate vicinity did not have time to think about what it meant when his magic went rogue again. In fact, most of them had not even known what had happened to them. They had died immediately. Those who survived long enough probably had said horrible, untrue things to the one responsible before they died.

Ashura had been perfectly willing to forgive him, regardless of the circumstances, because deep down he knew that Fai had never meant to kill anyone. He had certainly never meant to kill his sister whose body he had still been sobbing over hours later when Ashura had found him. But one look at the guilt-stricken face of the man who had staggered into the room with a worried cat girl at his side and Ashura knew he would not accept forgiveness. And as he stared at him, remembering the dirt-streaked boy he had rescued from the wreckage the boy himself had unintentionally caused, he knew he would do anything to ease his suffering.

So he allowed himself to be trapped in ice and magic and the dreaded water for his “protection,” knowing it was the only way the mage would forgive himself. If he could protect those he cared about by whatever means necessary, he would do it. They both knew the prison would not last forever, but Ashura had counted on being released as soon as the man had learned to fully control his powers. He was perfectly willing to wait hundreds of years if need be.

He had not counted on dreaming, and as bad as the dreams of the past were, the dreams of the present pained him a thousand times more. He soon learned Fai had no intention of returning to him, and was planning on running away forever. Running away with three strangers Ashura knew he had no intention of getting close to if recent behavior directly before he left was any indication. Since the three of them had essentially become the man’s new court, Ashura watched them to see if they met his approval.

The boy was strong and determined. He respected the mage for his wisdom and fighting abilities, yet he still maintained his distance. He made an excellent knight for the lost lord. The princess was sweet and charming, the perfect feminine companion for Fai to make sure he retained his delicate and refined manners which would have been ruined had he only had male companions. Ashura decided he liked those two, even if they did seem to be gradually pulling Fai’s loyalty, love, and devotion away from him.

The third companion, the dark one, the so-called ninja who was being punished by his princess which only seemed to prove the low caliber of man he really was, Ashura quickly decided he did not like at all. In fact, he soon learned to despise him more than he had ever despised another person before in his long life. The man was too rough with Fai. He spoke harshly to him, publicly cursed him for doing the things that had made Fai so endearing at the Celes court, and consistently pushed him beyond his physical capabilities and the beautiful blonde mage had gotten injured more than once as a result.

For a long time, trapped in his watery dreams, Ashura wondered why Fai had never given the man a lesson on proper etiquette and the correct way to handle a man of his station. So for months he watched and learned and slowly made a revelation that made his stomach turn at the prospect. Fai held absolutely no antagonistic feelings towards the ninja. In fact, he seemed to enjoy the man’s raw intensity, reveled in it almost and thrived, a shine in his bright eyes that Ashura had never seen before. The king eventually learned it was unbridled lust Fai tried to keep concealed for as long as possible.

As for the ninja, Ashura’s blood boiled when he started being gentler towards Fai. People were allowed to admire the mage, perhaps get a crush on him, they were even permitted to lust after him. But absolutely no one was permitted to fall in love with his most powerful mage. When it became apparent Fai was beginning to return those feelings, Ashura began to look for a way to break free of his prison while there was still time to make Fai realize that returning to Celes was his best option. Only to discover that she was always watching, the memory of Fai’s older sister kept alive by the cat girl sent to guard him. So he settled back into the shifting dreamscape, unable to do anything as he watched Fai slowly destroy his life, knowing he would only be heartbroken again should something terrible happen to his traveling companions.

Watched as the mage broke his own promise to never become close to someone. His mind raged when the ninja cruelly pushed the man into the mattress, crushing his weight down on him as Fai meekly struggled, obviously afraid of hurting his companion, pushing fruitlessly against the larger man’s chest. What kind of man could not tell when his partner was being less than enthusiastic or if he did notice simply did not care? It was certainly a man unworthy of spending any time with one such as Fai, let alone attempting to coax him into sex. The man had no right to be touching his Fai at all let alone have his hand splayed on the flawless skin in such an intimate manner.

“Hey,” and Ashura was relieved to see the darker man pull slightly away from Fai, hoping this nightmare would end soon. The poor mage was unable to catch his breath. “If you want me to stop, just tell me, and I will.”

“No, I want this.” He ran a hand down the exposed skin of the other’s chest. “I’ve wanted you for a very long time,” and he leaned up to kiss the base of the other man’s throat. “I’m just…” but the ninja apparently had no desire to learn what Fai’s reservations had been for he had returned to kissing him.

“He’s afraid,” Ashura was beginning to wish that Fai had never adored his sister so, “and it’s all your fault.”

He ignored her; he had no use for ghosts no matter how beautiful they were. That man… He had no right to be touching Fai like that, kissing Fai like that, violating the man’s perfect beautiful body with his sweat, saliva, and weight. How dare the man even think about desecrating the most beautiful noble in Celes with his seed?

“My brother is like water, just like the water entrapping you now. You will never be able to catch him. You were merely a rock in his path to happiness, a rock he has slowly beaten down.” He could not escape the image of his Fai snuggling against another man’s neck. “You were cold and refined in your love; he had always needed something more.” He supposed he always ignored it, but Fai was delicate and deserved to be treated with respect. “And that man has seen how desperately my brother is afraid of your awakening. He will never let him return to you.”

“He doesn’t understand,” and he tried to intimidate the man off of Fai by glaring at him, but neither mage nor ninja could sense his dream presence.

“It doesn’t matter. The raw power of the ocean cares not what gets in its way.” She chuckled, her voice dissolving into the water moving above him. “Eternity is a long time, Ashura-ou, to watch a man who told you he could no longer love fall in love with another man.”

Current Mood: satisfiedsatisfied
Current Music: Our Lady Peace - Somewhere Out There
Sephy {a story forever}: [Syaoran]: How Much Longer?sephyelysian on August 22nd, 2006 03:11 pm (UTC)
I rather like this one. It has a slow, fairy-tale like feel to it and there's something rather poetic about Ashura allowing himself to be trapped rather than the other way around. I like the way you've managed to shade both Fai and Ashura so that it's hard not to feel sorry for both of them in the end instead of just one or the other. Great job. ♥
E'ka: KuroFai Scarekas on September 6th, 2006 11:50 pm (UTC)
I'm glad you liked it. I was trying to show a different side to the Ashura/Fai relationship since all we seem to see is Ashura basically being a bastard to Fai.

Do these people not realize he was a wimp in RG Veda?
Jeannette: Chii has two daddies.von_questenberg on August 22nd, 2006 03:23 pm (UTC)
Very well done. One my my pet peeves has always been how the fandom so often treats Ashura-ou. I'm glad to see some non-Ebil!Ashura fic, especially one so well done. I can actually imagine CLAMP going this way with canon.
E'ka: KuroFai Scarekas on September 6th, 2006 11:51 pm (UTC)
Yup, that's one of my biggest pet peeves in the fandom as well is how they treat Ashura. Actually, did ever even say anywhere that Fai trapped Ashura, or is that just a fandom thing?

Hayamahayama4 on August 22nd, 2006 03:27 pm (UTC)
Wow! I really liked this. I liked how you made it so Ashura wasn't evil or anything. I liked how you made the stuff Fai feels guilty about REALLY no one's fault, not even Ashura's. This fic makes it seem like no one did anything wrong, Ashura just wasn't the person meant for Fai. I like that... because that's how life tends to be. The writing style was lovely as well ^_^ Oh! and I like how Fai's creation is Chii but then his sister was Freya... nice use of chobits characters... I can totally see CLAMP doing that...
E'ka: KuroFai Scarekas on September 6th, 2006 11:52 pm (UTC)
I adore Chobits so I thought I had to incorperate it somehow. And I'm glad you liked how I portrayed the Ashura/Fai history. It's a bit different from how I'm used to seeing it, so I wondered how people were going to react to it.
Juliepixieayanami on August 22nd, 2006 03:40 pm (UTC)
That was so good! A much different side to Ashura, that's for sure. It's interesting to see him be the understanding and "honest" one, while Fai on the other hand is the deceitful person in the relationship, while still turning out to be the good guy in the end. Nice work! ^_^
E'ka: KuroFyeWayekas on September 6th, 2006 11:53 pm (UTC)
LOL. This is how my friend and I have always seen the Ashura/Fai dynamic, so I decided to share it with the rest of the community as well.
Ally.C: Tsubasa KuroFai Angstgacktyougirl on August 22nd, 2006 04:40 pm (UTC)
Oh, yay! A non-evil Ashura-ou. I really liked this. It had a nice flow and the idea behind why Ashura-ou is trapped... it really fits well. Great job.
E'ka: KuroFai Scarekas on September 6th, 2006 11:54 pm (UTC)
I'm glad you liked it. And I've noticed you've become a frequent reviewer. Expect a fic dedication sometime in the future. ^.^
Ally.C: Tsubasa Y!Ashuragacktyougirl on September 7th, 2006 03:03 am (UTC)
xD For me? Aaaw, how sweet. I really do love your writing. I have your whole table save in my memories. ^-^
Jaina: Drowning Ashurajaina_torsec on August 22nd, 2006 06:01 pm (UTC)
That was great :D
I'm not a huge fan of AshuraxFai but you really caught my interest *__* The way you've came up with the reasons why Ashura-ou is trapped under water was very plausible :)

Thank you for this!
E'ka: Good Doggieekas on September 6th, 2006 11:54 pm (UTC)
You're quite welcome. ^.^ I wasn't much of an Ashura/Fai fan either, but then I started reading RG Veda and I realized Ashura wasn't a complete and total bastard, unlike common fiction protrayal.
Wrenfengtianshi on August 22nd, 2006 11:25 pm (UTC)
I completely love the way you pictured Ashura! He was one of my favorite characters in RG Veda and I can't understand why now he should be just the bad guy! Beautiful fic!
E'ka: AshuraYashaekas on September 6th, 2006 11:55 pm (UTC)
I'm glad the fic made you happy. I don't get to find many people that list Ashura as their favorite RG Veda character (I'm a Souma girl myself) though I like to tell my roommate she's a secret Ashura fangirl.
ユウイ: Faisnowaltz on August 23rd, 2006 11:47 am (UTC)
I think your Ashura/Fai relationship is very interesting. Usually it's Ashura being the abusive that made Fai ran away.

And usually it's Fai trying to seduce Kurogane.

It's a nice change and you write well =)

E'ka: Good Doggieekas on September 6th, 2006 11:56 pm (UTC)
Hyuu~! Thanks for the wonderful comments. Maybe I'll write more Ashura/Fai someday if that's a request. ^.~
ユウイ: Kurogane/Faisnowaltz on September 7th, 2006 08:29 am (UTC)
*laughs* Ashura scares me off, so that's not a request. Guess I'm too used to Ashura trying to kill Fai and Kurogane jumping in to help =P
E X T R E M E L Y Fyre'd U↑P: Doublewicked [sinfulintention]fyretoppaaa on September 2nd, 2006 10:39 am (UTC)
Lovely. For a while there, I thought that Ashura-ou would be portrayed completely blameless, but you managed to show the slightly twisted side of his personality as well... And I loved the way you fleshed out Chi. ^___^ ♥ *melts* A very well-written fic, with an original concept. This one's going in my memories~ ★
E'ka: KuroFai Scarekas on September 6th, 2006 11:58 pm (UTC)
*hugs* I'm glad you enjoyed it. I just decide I wanted to throw my own version of the Fai/Ashura/Chii thing into the fandom, and I decide this way was much better than a lenghty essay.
Mercurial Georgia (G.S.Y.H.): Bloomgsyh on October 20th, 2006 07:10 am (UTC)
I really like this
I stopped reading Tsubasa after the tropical forest thing in V8, and only caught up recently, and read through everything fast...meaning I got to the Yama part fast...and Ashura doesn't seem like the Uber Villain to me, he does have some class, even though he's definitely not A Good Person, he kills people, etc.

So it is different Ashuras, but since they share the same soul, Fai's Ashura can't be completely bad, or Fai wouldn't have looked so sad when he was sealing Ashura away, wishing him good dreams.

The ending rocks.
ECK: Kill him after the sexevercool on October 21st, 2006 02:00 am (UTC)
I so totally read this when it first came out, but I must have also totally forgotten to comment XD;;; Prolly read it before work, stupid ECK. I AM NOT WORTHY OF FORGIVENESS. But I just read it again to refresh my memory and it was still as great as the first time XD

I really really liked it *___* *sparkles* Everyone seems to like writing Ashura as an evil rapist, which I really just cannot see ^^; I have no idea why so many people toss that idea around either. I guess just cuz of the fear Fai shows in regards to him? Though in my opinion, Fai might not be so much scared of ASHURA as he is frightened for what HE(fai) did. The twist on why Fai sealed him that you presented here too, I really liked that >> Prolly one of if not THE favorite scenario I've seen yet. Aside from your writing just be love all together any way. *squish* The ending made me feel bad for Ashura DX Poor guy, stuck watching while his pretty mage goes and gets his heart stolen by another.

“I’m just…” but the ninja apparently had no desire to learn what Fai’s reservations had been for he had returned to kissing him.

“He’s afraid,” “and it’s all your fault.”

That's my favorite lines/part :x I squee at it XD

This fic was even in my memories but I hadn't commented T__T;;; WARK.

It made me very happy XDDD Makes me want to draw tons of Ashura art x__x Noooes, ECK. RESIST. RESISSSTTTT!!!!
E'ka: large swordekas on October 23rd, 2006 08:21 pm (UTC)
XDDDD I am vastly amused by the fact that you put it in your memories and forgot to comment.

I have no idea why so many people toss that idea around either.
I don't know either. I still don't know why people haven't realized that Fai's Ashura is not the same Ashura in Shura(?). XD It's been so long I don't remember how to spell it. But... yes... Not cool...

And... Squee! I want to see lil Fai with his hair. Kurogane and Fai are either the new Sanzo and Goku, or the new Hisoka and Tsuzuki. XDDDD I haven't decided which yet.

You should never resist the urge to draw! Just like I should probably not resist the urge to write. ^.^
(Anonymous) on April 25th, 2008 05:07 am (UTC)
So are these supposed to be like a preview of what you think will happen? Or just for fun? Im asking since Fai doesnt have a sister and Chi resembles his mom.
(Anonymous) on April 25th, 2008 05:07 am (UTC)
So are these supposed to be like a preview of what you think will happen? Or just for fun? Im asking since Fai doesnt have a sister and Chii resembles his mom.
E'ka: Freyaekas on April 25th, 2008 12:40 pm (UTC)
Re: Hi
This was written long before it was even announced in the manga that Fai had a twin.
(Anonymous) on April 25th, 2008 05:07 am (UTC)
double posted sorry!
takara94takara94 on July 9th, 2008 03:21 pm (UTC)
ooo~ I like this~ I have recently found out about the wonderful wonders of communities~ XD and I'm searching for all my favourtie pairings now~ =)